Hateless -4.18.05

Something that I thought I needed,
I wanted to get rid of,
several months ago
is now gone.
I had thought,
losing the hate I felt,
would make me better,
but leave a hole inside of me.
That something important
would be lost
But now,
as I try my hardest
to get into "the mood"
of a poem several months ago written,
I cannot.
I realize,
I'm hateless.
I have no hate in my life
that destroys my soul.
I was wrong.
yes, I was better,
I am better!
And i do have a hole in my soul
Where hate once filled it,
Loneliness settled in,
But then God settled in,
filling the void
with Him.
I have been hateless
for a few weeks
at the time that this poem was written.
How long exactly?
I don't know,
but I remembered I could not visit
that hated self
who once wrote poems
for some freedom of it.
I am hateless.

Things feel perfect.
Haha! I'd never thought I get
to say such a thing
before.
Of course,
I'm still anti-lovist.
And the pest of love
is now my nuisance
rather than hate
but hate?
sayonara! dont write!
Adios! Adieu!
One-way vacation trip!
I'M HATELESS!!!!

Yes, Im bothered sometimes
by hate caused things
but I can handle it!

My life is great...
amazing...(ok, that's overexaggerrated!)
i can live with it.
Thank You God,
for my nice life,
and most importantly,
my amazing, irreplaceable, wonderful,
fun, joyful...did i say amazing?
thank you God for my friends.
Thank you friends
for if i didnt have even half a friend...
let's not go there.
but the power of your friendship,
the best type of love,
has made me what I am today.
Hateless